I love how I am the only person posting when there are technically 2 others that SHOULD be contributing.
No matter....some changes have happened in quick succession that I feel are important to note.
Friday. I lost my job. Now, let me start by saying that I was hired pon June 27th of 2011, and have been actively looking for another job since July 2011. Yeah, the job was THAT BAD! It was horrible and I would never wish a position there on my worst enemy. The CEO is a liar, a cheat, cheap, and just an all around sleezy person. There were a LOT Of ethical issues I found going on there, as well as a LACK of concern about the employees as people.
That being said-- while I am SO glad to be out and will be receiving unemployment to help me get by, I am a little freaked out about just getting by. I FIRMLY believe that things happen for a reason, and so I know that a better position will be coming my way shortly.
Saturday. 'A' came into town! She is one of the three authors of this blog! She came in from China and visited LA for the first time! She was only here for a few hours but nonetheless it was great to see a friendly face in all the crazy that was going on!
Monday. Im getting on it! Im not about to just sit around and do nothing during this time. I need to get a job, get my house together, and get going on organizing and making the best out of my life at the moment. Sunday night I had a great and very long conversation with a friend and we have agreed that in America- is it really the land of opportunity? The economy is in the shitter- its ridiculously expensive to purchase a home, (let alone build which is something that I have always dreamed of) and it just feels like things arent really getting all that much better-- at least not good enough for me to want to stick around any longer. I want to win the lotto and travel for a while. That would be a dream come true.
Anyway. I am trying to remain positive throughout all of this-- should be interesting to see how long it lasts. Good thing is that because everything is so bad, I do have friends to hang out with!
B
Monday, March 12, 2012
Monday, March 5, 2012
My Dream Last Night...
Let me start by saying, Im totally psychic. Not in the traditional,ooooo I can tell your future just by touching you-- or oooo I talk to dead people. No no, nothing like that. I can tell my own future, but not with ridiculous clarity.
Let me explain. I get deja vu. 'Oh, well I get that too...' you might be saying. NOPE SORRY YOU DONT, not like I do.
I get deja vu- 3 times (it has considerably increased as I have gotten older)--so whats the French equivalent to that?. As in, "Crap, I've done this twice before" yeah, its actually a little annoying to see your future self participate in random actions to only have them make sense in a non-magical way without unicorns or rainbows or fairies, or singing nymphs. Reality can suck it.
Anyway- because of this my dreams are vivid and I often remember them, the feelings that they generate, the emotion that is there, the tension, the wind on my skin, yeah I can often times wake up and still BE there with pretty good clairty.
So last nights dream......
I owned a motorcycle. Not just any motorcycle-- AN AMERICAN FLAG motorcycle. Take that commies! My helmet was pure white with sparkles so that my white helmet would BLIND you if you looked directly at me.
I remember riding as a form of therapy.
Side note: never have i ever... ridden a motorcycle-- not driving or riding-- take a drink if you have!
I can recall the need to be on this bike-- the urgency that I would feel when I needed to ride. It was uncomfortable at best. Also, I was a lot reckless and would do stunts like going on my front wheel.
There was this woman that I knew-- and she was having a hard time, and I just remember needing to ride because of her situation. That I felt so helpless in regards to her. For some reason it was important that I internalize her issues. She wasnt anyone that I currently know-- that I can recall....
Yeah-- thats about it. And you are welcome-- for that little insight into the psyche that is me!
Let me explain. I get deja vu. 'Oh, well I get that too...' you might be saying. NOPE SORRY YOU DONT, not like I do.
I get deja vu- 3 times (it has considerably increased as I have gotten older)--so whats the French equivalent to that?. As in, "Crap, I've done this twice before" yeah, its actually a little annoying to see your future self participate in random actions to only have them make sense in a non-magical way without unicorns or rainbows or fairies, or singing nymphs. Reality can suck it.
Anyway- because of this my dreams are vivid and I often remember them, the feelings that they generate, the emotion that is there, the tension, the wind on my skin, yeah I can often times wake up and still BE there with pretty good clairty.
So last nights dream......
I owned a motorcycle. Not just any motorcycle-- AN AMERICAN FLAG motorcycle. Take that commies! My helmet was pure white with sparkles so that my white helmet would BLIND you if you looked directly at me.
I remember riding as a form of therapy.
Side note: never have i ever... ridden a motorcycle-- not driving or riding-- take a drink if you have!
I can recall the need to be on this bike-- the urgency that I would feel when I needed to ride. It was uncomfortable at best. Also, I was a lot reckless and would do stunts like going on my front wheel.
There was this woman that I knew-- and she was having a hard time, and I just remember needing to ride because of her situation. That I felt so helpless in regards to her. For some reason it was important that I internalize her issues. She wasnt anyone that I currently know-- that I can recall....
Yeah-- thats about it. And you are welcome-- for that little insight into the psyche that is me!
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